The thing about wedding planning is that it makes you think you can put off real life. It’s ridiculous, I know. Because while there are indeed a lot of things to plan (oh crap, I just remembered I have to figure out how to make heart-shaped jello-shot jigglers), it’s not like you have wedding stuff to do every day. No, it is very possible to be a fully functioning member of society while also sorting out your cocktail hour playlist. And yet I have successfully used this distraction to push aside the hard stuff, the reality of, I have no idea where I am going in life. I keep promising myself that I’ll figure it out after August, when my brain is not dancing with paper pom-poms. But it frustrates me that I still haven’t found my thing, the thing that I will make stick. I mean, I’m a writer, I know that. But where is it taking me? Or better yet, where am I taking it? There are possibilities out there, and I am hopeful. Though it’s times like these that I wish I had it all figured out.
P.S. Thanks for all your sweet comments on our engagement photos. You guys make me smile.
i totally feel you here! many times josh and i say to each other, “we should have eloped.” though, i know really, i wouldn’t be happy about that in the “long run,” though after a few months of planning i feel like i might have been…
I am sure it can get to be too much and the thought of running away to get married is something that has always, always sounded appealing to me. I also adore that picture!
I’m with you on the whole life on hold thing. I’m an artist, but I’m all over the place. I work for a nonprofit teen shelter all day, and try to squeeze in portraits and insanely cute/creeptastic things to sell on Etsy IN MY FREE TIME. Ha! I want to write children’s books…BUT…I just don’t know. It all comes down to what I like to call the “Too much and not enoughs”. Too much to do, not enough time or brain power. You’re not alone, though. And we WILL figure it out eventually, right?
I could have written this.
I feel the same way.
My job right now is fine, for now, but I know I’m not happy and I want something else.
I just don’t know what that something else is. And I’m using this wedding as a means of procrastinating the huge task of figuring out what the hell I want out of my professional life.
i’ve seen heart-shaped foil tins/liner thingys at target… but around valentine’s day. i used them to make heart-shaped brownies for a friend’s bridal shower. around halloween, i found ghost-shaped ones that i used to make jello shots =) hope this helps.
about the other topics in this post, the four ladies above already said it and quite well at that.
I have no idea where I am going in life either. High five? :/
I love that photo.
I loved my wedding. I really, really did. It was everything I ever wanted, BUT, if I had to do it again, I would totally have eloped, or at least had a much smaller destination wedding. If I ever have daughters, I’ll be begging for that!
Enjoy the planning as much as you can!
You’re such a talented writer :) I’m sure you’ll find your place soon. xoxo
This photo is AMAZING. Please blow it up and hang it above the mantel in your new place? Assuming wherever your new place is has a mantel?
Try not to stress about the writing, you have buttloads of talent and are never dull, at least in my eyes?
I think that when life stops moving in fast forward and settles down a bit you’ll have a chance to breathe and figure out where you’re headed next. Try to enjoy the present (i know it’s easier said than done, ha.) because tomorrow always seems to come too darn quickly. :)
xoxo